
How determine I can be?
I have been updating my blog everyday for this week.
If I do not have any pictures with me
or anymore events to update then I won't.
In other words , I have nothing better to do.
My phone is too quiet and I don't go online often
because I don't know and have no idea who to talk to.
And sometimes , I would rather spend sometime
on my bed and try to fall asleep although I am not tired.
But, I couldn't and instead of that ,
I think and imagine things that would just crash me.
I always feel sick and tired after eating 1204820984 of tablets
and skipping it for a week just feel so good , you know.
And my moodswings get even more worse than before.
I get angry even more easier right now
and I do not care about other people's feelings
then just to tell them in their face.
I forget to remind myself how to control my emotions
and I always don't like to keep everything to myself.
And now I start to wonder ,
how many people will leave soon enough.
Hmmm ,


I am so jealous
and I have no idea how long could I fight this feeling , alone.

I actually deserve all these. I do not deserve to be treated like I am somebody special because I only give people disappointment and heartache. I am a loser and I am very selfish because I never try to understand and tolerate.I find excuses to deny my wrongs.
Maybe I am wrong and maybe not?

How evil can I be?

Because , it's my fault for not telling you .
I am so pathetic.

And school have been awesome , I suppose.
And when bangs comes together..

And somehow , this fella and I lose connection
for a quite sometime and it comes back already nao!
Donniena :D
for a quite sometime and it comes back already nao!
Donniena :D



And I know that ,
this post is pointless but at least,
I don't leave my blog dead right ?
toodles ?
xoxo.
p.s Call me , green eyed monster.
this post is pointless but at least,
I don't leave my blog dead right ?
toodles ?
xoxo.
p.s Call me , green eyed monster.