Sometimes, I think I am better off alone , better off to be a loner and a friend to myself. So that, I do not need to give a damn whatever my friends think or say about me .I do not need to explain. I do not get accused.I do not have be called a 'faker'.I do not need to tell them about me.I do not need to report about everything.I do not need to be afraid to offend anyone.I do not need to pretend.I do not need to know what they are thinking.I do not need to have intention to find out what's the matter and what happened. I do not need to.
But I go against it and tried to find out all above.
My mood was a little hyper today and everything went on well today,as well.Everything seems to be going on my way lately and I guess,life's not that sad after all.I have been spending too much money lately and the word 'self-control' seems to be disappear from my dictionary.Well, I will add it in soon or so.I have not been doing my homework and I guess, I just couldn't rush it all up in one day.I am so lazy. ):
I went out today , with ze girls who I have been spend time with and then joined the boys for a little while to dinner.I have a date with this girl ,
yes, this girl
in KL tomorrow. and, Kai's sweet16 too.
Can't wait.
And, maybe a movie marathon day with the others on monday.Yes, I am skipping school and tuesday, I should just be patriotic to stay at home with a Malaysia flag on my left hand when my right hand is doing my homework .Or slack the whole there and finish my homework last minute, hee.
Okeh, I should go to sleep nao!
Ah, Can't wait. p.s You're gone , is a fact to me now.
So, I have tons of pictures to post up so I decided to spam everything up here. Will be kinda busy these few days tho. Have a few outings to go and stuff and I believe there will be more pictures up especially the camwhore ones.
Well, I lost my BB cream ); I have no idea where I put it and now, I need to get a new one. I need a new school bag. really.
Megasales is still on.. Soo.. Anyone, wanna go shopping? :p
Ah okay okay, let's start.
First of all,
Happy 7TH Birthday, Brother (; Jasper Lim Teng Hoong.
And really, I am not sure whether I wanna buy you a robot or not because, you shoved my nokia 6170 down the ribena when you are 3 , you threw my motorola x3 down the toilet bowl and almost flush it when you are 4 and you threw my psp down from the 3rd floor from daddy's office last year when you are 6. So, I really need to consider it first.
Ah, I know you still love me one laah!
His birthday dinner is postponed to next week, I guess since my daddy is in Bangkok nao.He better get me souvenirs man!
Fahrenheit's 4th album 'Too Hot' will be released during middle of september around 16 in taiwan and so, in malaysia..We can get it around 20th and so, end of the year they should come to malaysia.OMG OMG OMG.
And you know what, their new song 'super hot' music video is plain awesome. Everyone was half naked and all of them was like trying to grab their clothes open or something. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! IT'S LIKE OMGWTFBBQ HOT (; I want them here in Malaysia nao ); !
Watch this first .
BLOOODY HEEEEEELLLLL!
When I watch it , my heart beats extra fast as if it's gonna pop out or something. AH, FAHRENHEIT (:(:(:(:
CALVIN CHEN YI RU is shoooo cute , you know (;(: Call me Mrs Chen,please.
Okay shoooo , I think I should end here if not you all will die.
Third, schooooooool.
School is okay , I guess. Those merdeka decorations is awesome but I didn't really contribute enough tho. Trust me, Delta have awesome leaders.
I used to think that 3Alpha'09 is better and also, think that delta is kinda boring but nao, everything just totally change my mind. Delta is really awesome and, I feel so lucky to be a deltarian nao .
Okay, this sound so gay to me but yeah :p
this lucky fella have just left to Perth. Ah, better come home soooon maaaan/
pe class?
And the other day, with mrs potato.
FYI, this is Lisa . The younger one of the twins and I know she is daaaaaamnnnn cuteeee :p
And do you know that she was afraid of me before she is this close to me and really, that makes me think am I that scary ); I am just ABIT loud, ABIT violent and ABIT rude. ): Life's so sad , don't you think so. Nothing much, I think this girl is really cute and trust me, when I start at staring at her, I couldn't stop doing it. And really, this question suits her *cough cough* Did it hurt falling from heaven?You look like an angel to me? And, her expression , totally go omg ! shoooooooo cute :p
Love you lah, lisababy (:
This was suppose to be a picture with another twin but I think I am too noob at camwhoring with people so yeah.Or maybe, my camera likes me so much :p
And yeah, there it goes.
The elder one, LiVon. Tell me that , they don't look like twins at all .
And her every movement is funny, trust me. I used to be scared of her because she stares like mad but nao, aiyaaa stare la stare laaa hahaha.
My point is, I think twins shouldn't be compared. Don't you think so?
Fourth,
Today we have our first drama practice at Chinkeat's house and it went all good , I suppose.Despite spoilers who doesn't wanna act properly and show his face during the practice, all went good.
group pic :p
And we have nothing to do after 2 hours of practise so, we split into two groups. And shoooo, the boys Dota-ed as usual and some of us gambled, I lost ten bucks ): or is it eleven ):
Fifth , As usual , I come home and checked fb.formspring and etc etc.
And shooo today , Someone send this to me on formspring
I am absolutely sure that you know who am I and nor I need to make any introductions.You have to post this up because I am speaking out for feelings for you,friend.You are not that strong and stop thinking that you are.It makes others feels like slapping you when you starts faking with a smile on your face.It hurts your friends when you don't want to tell the truth instead of smiling and joking all around.Did you occur that we are not THAT stupid to not know that you are faking.CarmenLimKahMun,one person gave up on you does not mean the whole world gives up on you.Please understand this fact.It is a fact. You can be bitchy and act like all you do not care in front of us, your friends and try to hide your feelings as good as possible but WE ARE YOUR FRIENDS.We know you to be call as your 'friends'.We can watch you cry in front of our face or watch you cursing about your life.We rather watch you being unreasonable or cry to feel better,do you know that.It sucks to watch you trying to make us less worry.We are more afraid than loosing you than you do.How many times you want us to repeat to you.We need you and we never left you.Stop being a pessimistic person.We are always here and never left.Those bastards who left you are stupid,useless and hopeless.Can you just tell us everything and not hide your feelings anymore. You have so many friends,so many one of us and mayb some of them are not with us but,we have shoulders for you to lean on.We are not for display,Carmen.We can do everything you did for everyone of us too..Why don't you just understand,we are capable to make you happy like how you do for us.You are NOT strong,babe.Why can't you just get it.Everyone needs someone.That someone you have might left you and not trust you anymore. He doesn't understand you,Carmen.He never trusted you.He never tried to know.He never put all his effort on you.He gave up on you.So,give up on him too.We are ALL here for you.We love you so much more than he does.Please,don't make yourself that pathetic.We scold you for your own good.We stop you and control your freedom because we are afraid that you leave us.Maybe some of them left you but those who stays will still get worried of you but you treated us like..our existence is transparent.You only care about those useless freaks that leave you. We are here,Carmen.Cry to us,Moan to us,Tell us how sad you are and tell us what you wanna do.Tell us everything about you.We want to know everything about you.Please don't hurt yourself anymore.We will always there for you.We love you.Stay strong and fight!Break down infront of us and we will never leave. Trust us. Love, your friend.
And, I am so touched.
I never felt this way before.When I read it, I almost cried because that's what I always wanted to hear , wanted to get from my friends and I may not know who is the one who posted this up.Because, I definitely know this person have been watching over me and love me. I love you, friend.
I know how terrible I look in that picture but I have no choice because I never camwhore in the party.
Party on friday was awesome. Despite a few people who doesn't wanna cooperate and only have fun by themselves, everything went on great and fun.
And, I am really sure that everyone did enjoy themselves.The trip to carrefour was okay tho.The feeling of buying things is just pure awesome, no.
Well, of course this will not be my update about class party.Don't you think it's a little too simple, haha.I will update a full and complete asap and so, this is just a preview or something.Trust me, it will take me a long time because I need to collect pictures from er..people?WAIT, I mean fb.fb is shoooo efficient :D
Give you a lil taste,
formal (;
and no, delta's not like that (;
because
peaaaaaaaaaaaaace :p
kissh you kissh you.
FLOWER :D
And , I wonder who said that Delta will fail in every plan , Delta is not united and cooperative , Delta sucks a whole lot.
The fact is , NO.
Delta is not what you think and everything much more you could imagine , losers.
So , face the fact that , 4DELTA'10 ISH AWESOMEEEEEEE :D
Have been flooding my blog with emo post lately and I guess it matches with my theme, isn't it? Life's so sad pfft.
I wonder how many people keep repeating that in a day? Deltarians (;
And I kinda dig these out of nowhere from my folder and so yeah .
I was studying for second monthly :p
And nao, I know it's a no no to study infront of the mirror again :p
Chemistry so hard !
School's okay , i guess but I am still flooded with tons of homework which i have never have any intention to finish. Or maybe I will just try to get it all done by this weekend D:
And so, i went out last sunday for a movie. Okay this was a quite sometime ago but still , there are too many pictures of my face in it sooo yeaaaaah :D
Have lunch at italinnies with ze son-in-laws then to tarbush. God knows what are we doing there .
And that place always give me a camwhore mood :D
Okay, I have no idea why the make up look so light when it's like so thick in real life .
LIKE!
LIKE!
son in laws.
Then headed to the cinema around 3 or so. Got ireland potatos and popcorns, drinks then to cinema for Inception and it's really awesome.
a MUST watch movie!
then gene left, so both of us was like wandering round the mall
toilet break!
Couldn't make our mind what's for dinner and then, spend around an hour to decide and end up at simply penang and it was good.
back home around 9.
And I have so much things to do tomorrow.
4Delta class party tomorrow. It may sound like it's something normal but still, couldn't wait.
I have been shutting up myself out today. It's almost tomorrow now and somehow , I have a deep feeling inside me.
I browsed through my folder of pictures today and find out that, I have so much pictures and so I decided to post up some of them from last time. As in, a quite sometime.
And shooooo ,
This was on Chloe's birthday celebration .
SHO CUTE :D
like!
And school too. Grabbed some pictures from facebook. And yeah .
ROUND ROUND'S birthday , harhar.
And then , this was yesterday.
So yesterday right after school . Few of us went to AC to have lunch and I got a little moody after that due to some reasons but then, I was okay after a while or so.
Then, The double Ming and neighbour and of course me :D headed to starbucks. And a very good catching up session. Love Ming Square like mad HARHAR.
Cynthia and Andrew came after that. Then we have a last minute plan to redbox . You have no idea how emo we were when we were singing those songs and stuff.
And so, the pathetic Andrew and Cyn have transport problem and we stoned at one corner for like err.... 15 minutes or something LMAO
And so today , I was a little busy and tired more than usual . hmm..
I'm so sorry that this post sound so lazy but really, my mood sucks like mad. I feel like typing because I have nothing better to do. I really don't wanna stone infront of the tv or lie down on my bed and go all emotional. I have no intention to do my homework too.
So, I guess I should download some dramas to watch or something if not I will just feel like , ' When am I gonna die' kind of thing. I do not know how to explain but it sucks.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.Say I wouldn't call and I lost all control and I need you now. I don't know how I would do without.And I need you now.
Maybe it's true that I can't live without you, maybe two is better than one.
Without my friends , I'm nothing. youknowwhoyoupeopleare (;
