Of disappointment.

You know what?

Sometimes,
I think I am better off alone , better off to be a loner and a friend to myself.
So that,
I do not need to give a damn whatever my friends think or say about me .I do not need to explain. I do not get accused.I do not have be called a 'faker'.I do not need to tell them about me.I do not need to report about everything.I do not need to be afraid to offend anyone.I do not need to pretend.I do not need to know what they are thinking.I do not need to have intention to find out what's the matter and what happened. I do not need to.

But I go against it and tried to find out all above.

I get nothing but in the end ,
One word.

FAKE.