She's holding on with fairytales <3

Still young.

2012-01-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

Hello!

I'm sorry that I have been filling up my blogpost with all those emotional post but I'm totally fine now. Perhaps, I just need somewhere to let out how I actually feel. But, every word is true okay. K fine, a little more dramatic and exaggerating.

I'm back to normal already.

So, I'm here to blog about the first day of CNY.

I woke up approximately around 10am and got dress up. I was so happy with my red dress and then , I start doing my make up. When I want to put my fake lashes on, I realize that I lost my eye lash glue . I spent at least 30minutes searching high and low for it. But, thank god that I didn't apply anything that requires lashes to make it look perfect.

So,

I stick to simple make up which looks the same everytime I go for outings.

Got up and eat misua with chicken feet cooked with mushrooms.

Idk why but my family eat that in the morning every year before heading out to the house.

But, it's different this year. We didn't head to the temple though. We just wait for people to come over. While eating the misua, I was still emoing about the lost eyelash glue.

Pictures.

baby bel is already a year old now!

I have no idea why she want to feed my phone -.-

Sorry, just too cute.

And nao MYSELF :D:D:D:D WAHAHAHAHHAAH!

those eyebags :3

And camwhore with sister,

like button.

too vain.

Relative came over and they had their gambling session. Around 5pm, went over to great grandma house. I think my hokkien improved. She finally understand what I am talking about and I feel so proud of myself. So sick of my dad laughing at me when I'm speaking hokkien.

Oh well,

people improve *proud face*

Came home and rest for a little while and then deal with the fire crackers.

Dad bought some for us, to play with though. Didn't took the picture of fireworks though, it was just too fast TT

Went out for a while, skipped dinner and headed to Xuelin's house for more gambling session. It was a hell of a night.

Pictures will do the talking.

Shawnam.

Terence.

Chuen.

He took our picture and post on my instagram. He even created the caption himself. He's really funny though.

And group pictures!

Brandon Koh.

You just have no idea how many girls go crazy over him.

And before I end this post,

GONG XI FA CAI,

again.

lol.

Excruciating.

2012-01-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

I really don't want to actually whine or complain about how bad my life is during CNY plus, today is just only the third day so it counted as the start. This year , I don't feel anything during CNY at all. The excitement and anxiousness doesn't go all over my body, down to my veins like how the past years do and instead of feeling that way, I feel rather sad and depressed.

I have not been living properly.

What I meant was , I didn't live the life I used to lived in. The sequence all went wrong, just wrong. I don't even understand myself either.

I used to talk every second , I can't stop talking at all. If you know me well, I can talk to anyone about anything without having any awkwardness and any pause. But now, I just want to shut up and stone. I just want to leave my head blank, always. I don't talk that much anymore. The smile on my face is slowly fading away. As it fades, the pain in the heart grows larger that it almost suffocate me.

I know that it's dramatic but yes, it is how it should be.

I want to talk about myself, my thoughts and my problem too but when it always comes out of my mouth, it's either stuck in my throat or somebody interrupts me.

I don't know how to exactly express how much suffering I am in right now. I can only describe it in a sentence which is,

I feel so sad.

I just need a listener , a shoulder for me to lean on and to help me get through everything that I am suffering right now.

I feel so fucking sad that I want to die. I can't even breathe properly and every beat of my heart is beating hurts me so bad that my bones is gonna break into pieces soon. I'm so sad that I can't even cry. I'm so sad that I can't even talk. I'm so afraid the next word I said , might bring me to tears again. I don't want to cry infront of my friends, I don't want to be dramatic. I just want attention for now, I want to be pat on my back when I cry again. I'm sick of smiling to my friends, telling them that I'm so fine. I am not, at all and infact, I could hear every pieces of my heart breaking.

I feel so vulnerable.

I don't want to pretend anymore.

I'm so sick of pretending.

It's up to you to care anot.. I hate waiting. I hate that I look like a stray dog begging for attention and comfort from you, people.

I'd rather be alone.

whatfuckingever.

2012-01-23T02:58:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Happy Chinese New Year and hope you guys will have a very prosperity dragon year.

Let's put those red stuff on.

ps , one of the worst day of my life . ): But, move on yo.

2012-01-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

Guess who?

Love Letter.

2012-01-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

I hate going through heartbreaks.

I totally hate the feeling when little things remind me of things I'm trying to forget. The more I try to forget, the more I remember. I hate how it goes and totally hate the feeling of something pulling my heart down, making me having a minor headache and sore eyes. I think I'm too ego , I just don't want to let my tears speak my sorrows. I don't want to seem so weak.

But,

just like other girls , I don't want to accept the truth because lies is what I wanna hear. I keep on finding excuses for you and for me. Keep on finding reason to continue everything that it's suppose to end.

You know what keeps me holding on?

Our memories.

To think back, you never hurt me before. Not even once. The worst thing you did to me was telling me you like someone else or probably you still do now. I don't know and I don't want to know either. Because, I know that you will try your hardest to be as harsh as possible so that I give up. I don't want you to hurt me, and yourself.

You were there during the hardest time of my life and you were there all along when sorrows almost drown me. You were there , just there without saying anything but you have no idea how comforted I felt.

I can remember all of our first time together and now, it still bring a smile to my face.

You see,

I can only remember how good you were.

But, I know that this doesn't belong to me anymore. We drifted apart although the feelings is still strong. Distance mattered us , and infact it's going to kill us sooner or later. It's a very good decision you made , to avoid yourself from me , from us. It must have took you a lot of bravery and time. I know that I probably sound like a desperate fool right now but, for once I want to be stupid at least , for you.

It's sick denying anyways.

It's hard to believe that you won't be here anymore. I know that you won't be there to listen to my rants , to hear me complain about my everyday anymore. I know that you're not going to there to buy me food and drinks when I'm hungry. I know that you're not going to wipe off my tears anymore. I know that you're not going to hug me to sleep or perhaps pat my back to sleep. I know that you're not going to come after me when I walk away anymore.

I'll move on and so do you.

I hope in future , I will smile when I hear your name and even better if our friendship could last long.

Treat yourself well and I will treat myself well too.

So,

good things comes to an end.

You're one of the good things that happened in my life.

Thanks for every tiny bit of memories you gave me.

I love you.

love,

Carmen.

Breakeven.

2012-01-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling rather annoyed and complicated right now. I hate how this feeling is making me sick , up my throat and down to my stomach. I hate how I go to sleep with a very depressing feeling and wake up with a heavy heart. And, it gets me really angry when I know that nothing is going to change. I tried but got rejected by my conscious in a way. I think I overdo everything that I am suppose to , I think everything isn't that worth it after all. Then, I start to hate myself for falling so hard and so deep for someone that might not even miss me in future.

I mean like,

what's the point of doing so much thing for somebody when they don't even know how to show some appreciation.

I almost break down because I feel so ignored and not appreciated. Or maybe even worst , rejected.

I'd prefer that I got rejected obviously or maybe, being push away straight to my face. I would prefer a knife stab into my heart that it bleeds and I will move on and give up. Or maybe just shoot those harsh words into my face and let me know that I am not worthy.
But,
it's not like that at all.

I hate how everytime I am mad, you tried to make me feel better. I hate how everytime when I cry, you are there to wipe those tears away. I hate when times I need warmth, you will tell me that it's okay. I hate how when I am upset with life, you are there to brighten it up again. I hate how everytime I push you away, you wouldn't hate me. I hate how much you listen to me about what I ask you to do.I hate how you do little things for me and let me know. I hate how you make me feel like I'm actually worth it. I hate how you make sure that I'm fine every single time. I hate how you hide your sorrows infront of me , with a smile.
and,
I hate you for hugging me to sleep when I'm crying.

Every single thing you do is holding me on, making me admit my feelings towards you.

You don't know how hard I actually tried to drift myself away from you but somehow you pulled me closer every single time.

You told me that we are friends but what are you doing all this kind of thing? ):

So,
what now?

New.

2012-01-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hi !

College just started and things are going on well , I suppose.

Not much to blog about since there's absolutely no pictures. Have been hanging out quite alot lately and it burns a hole in the pocket. Oh well, college life isn't it?

ps. Don't turn my sweet dream into a horrifying nightmare.

till then.

依然爱你

2012-01-08T02:20:00.000+08:00

I'm here to do a late post about my trip to genting during NYE.

I celebrated NYE and New Year's in genting itself. It's a 3d2n trip but it's like just only a day to me. We should have stayed 4d3n instead. Idk why but time flies when you're with your friends, don't you think so. I'm just going to roughly do a post.

Oh well,

more to pictures though. I'm too lazy to elaborate.

During NYE ,

I woke up at freaking 6am.

My grandpa told me it's already 645am so I rushed into the toilet but when I checked my phone in the toilet , it's only 6am .

Don't ask why but I bring my phone into the toilet to listen to songs , to make sure that I don't shower forever. Hot shower in the morning is really good. And I stayed in the shower for 45 minutes.

Got ready and Mingli came over to my place.

Left the house to ou around 730am or so and meet up with everyone else there.

Had a light breakfast and off we go.

Surprisingly, it only takes 45 minutes to the cable car station.

I thought that the crowd would be crazy but it was just fine. Oh well, it's good being an early bird! (:

In the cable car,

And we went to starbucks and chilled for a while .

No,

actually it was two hours and then to Coffee Terrace for buffet lunch. yums!

And the others joined us , as well.

Went to the counter to place our luggage and to bowling.

And everyone starts to take pictures there while waiting for our lane.

-.-

twins!

kevaaaaaan!

loveee.

weichanx4

and,

after bowling, back to room and get some rest.

Went down and watched a horror movie from Singapore.

2359.

Oh god, it was terrible. I squinted my eyes all the way through the show. I got scared by a friend and really, I actually felt like dying. Horror movie is really not my thing but in a way, it's fun looking at everybody covering their face with fear.

Guess what?

We actually spend the night in the room -.-

Oh well,

as long as we are together.

Yes, the 16 of us LOL.

Had a hell of a night.

Woke up with a headache.

God knows what we did last night.

I had a minor stomach ache in the morning , I had a really good laugh. You will never want to see how Kevan drop those KFC chickens on the floor. It was really epic and we even rolled on the bed laughing.

Ohmygod,

why are we so funny, lol!

Have pizzahut for breakfast.

Was suppose to go for outdoor but then, the weather was bad so everything's off. We separated. Some of us went for bowling and the other half went to arcade and let their money flow. I always think arcade is a waste of money but when you get addicted, who cares about money la right, lol!

And I don't remember what we did already.

I only remember the scene where we go back to the hotel room and stuff.

Me and weichanx4 was sitting like a boss at the couch, eating pistachios and talking about life. Then , they have fireworks and it was really pretty.

I think I'm weird.

I like stuff with lights. I am always amazed with lights. God, I'm weird.

Had dinner and we went to the slope down and sat there. The night view is really really beautiful. I want to look at it everynight!

von :0

The girls!

gene.

I don't know what's wrong with us.

But all of us went slightly emotional after that,

start to confess and hug each other after that.

I like how the scene is.

So loving.

so cuteeeee, mg (:

heart to heart talk?

Not joking,

it was terribly cold!

As in cold ):

look at muh pig face!

And the night was great, I suppose.

Woke up with a major headache. Hung over like crazy.

Back to pyramid around 4pm and hang out.

Home at 9pm.

It's one of the best trip ever. Infact, it was so fairytale-like all the way. Thank you so much (:

ily.

My best friend.

2012-01-05T18:21:00.003+08:00

Hi,

I've bet you have already expected this post and maybe you have been waiting for it for long. This sucks so bad , I know that you can read my mind without me saying anything. I know that you can even tell whether I am lying without any clue from me.

Infact , I think it's really irony.

So bitch,

it have been 5 years already.

No wait,

it's already 2012 so it's suppose to be 6 years.

I don't know how to put how I actually feel in words.

But what I know that I hate the fact that you are leaving.. Tomorrow.

I know that our friendship bond is very strong. We can not talk to each other for a month or two and yet, we could still know when we feel down or depressed. But don't you think that UK is a little bit too far? We don't only have to cope with distance , we have to deal with our time difference and even the people we have met. I am never insecure, infact you should know that I'm always insecure in things.

You know you can read my mind.

I don't want to repeat how much you mean to me because I have done that for the past 5 years. Repeating it doesn't going to change anything. I believe that words couldn't describe how close we are. And now, I'm trying to believe that distance isn't going to drift us apart.

I'm really sad, though .

And,

I think you could sense it.

Thank you, ZhiWei.

It've been long since I called your name , just your name.

Thanks for being there, every single time. Yes, it's every single time.

It feels really good that when I just feeling like breaking down, I receive a text from you to ask whether what happened.

Thanks for wiping my tears away when I'm crying. Thanks for coming right away when you know that I'm admitted to the hospital. Thanks for bringing out some senses from me when I go crazy. Thanks for yelling, shouting, hitting or even punching me when I'm not right. Thanks for being so straight forward all the time.

Thanks for fighting for me, when you know that I'm wrong.

You see,

it's always you doing something for me and yet, I can't even make you stop worrying.

I suck a whole lot.

I love you, best friend.

I love you alot. I don't know how am I going to cope when you're not around for the next 6 months. 6 months is already very short but really, it still sound really long to me.

I don't want to be replaced ):

And I swear,

you will never be replaced.

As in, NEVER.

But things isn't going to get back now, we have to move on.

Have a safe flight tomorrow, love.

I really love you, best friend.

I really do.

from,

an useless friend.

Zero Luck.

2012-01-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

The year really start very badly ):

First,

The bird shit on me ! ):

Then,

I lost my iphone.

Now,

I feel like a disaster.

OMG TT

2012,

PLEASE BE NICER TO ME ):

2012-01-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

I know that you will never come across this page of mine.

Thanks for the memories, love.

I love you.

p/s : you deserve better.

The last.

2011-12-31T02:54:00.002+08:00

Sorry to scare you with my camwhore picture.

I really have nothing to update and so,

I'm gonna torture you guys with some good food I have eaten past few days.

Fish & Co Seafood plate.

Italinnies Caesar Salad!

Snowflake!

And that's all, wtf.

I'll be back soon.

Last day of the year tomorrow and I'll be in genting with my friends.

Please enjoy tomorrow very well!

My heart is a stereo.

2011-12-27T02:56:00.001+08:00

I have been really busy lately though. Too many outings . I wanted to stay at home these few days but I still went out ;/ Sales is on, baybeh! (: I hope all of you have grabbed all the christmas goodies.

After staying at home alone pathetically during Christmas eve, I went to Shawnam's Christmas BBQ party at his crib. I thought it would be a sweaty stinky thing but thankgod, there are some cold breeze blowing through. Plus, all the food was good. I am never a good cook so yeah. I'm glad that the boys had made me quite a yummy dinner. Oh well, at least it's cooked right? Actually.. there are only 4 girls there but well, nothing changes. It was okay.

After dinner, most of us gather into groups and then, talk about the olden days. wtf, sound so old eh? We just talked about primary times and also, those old stupid times that we had together. Didn't touch any alcoholic drinks that day.

I don't think anyone wants to see how am I when I'm drunk.

I don't know what I will do actually but the way my friends describe me makes me sound like a monster , a very annoying one. I hate the way they remind me about how bad I am acting when I'm drunk.

Gosh, it's beyond crazy.

And we moved into indoors and starts to take picture.

like button pls!

And

SUPER LOVE!

Believe or not?

During standard 6 times, the four of us is actually in a group. It's so good that we are all still so close and still keep in touch. I totally love the picture above. We still look so close and ever. And the two boys still never even change a bit. It's good that people don't change as time pass.

I hope that we still could keep in touch after college or uni.

To talk about that,

we are starting college in a week time.

Damn,

I haven't really go for a holiday yet :/

Kah Ming and I.

I was a little bored when everyone when separately. Some of them went for mahjong, poker and ciggy breaks. I just sat down with a few of them and watched , Canon the barbarian. The sex scene made everyone of them stop to watch it and when it's over, they're back to what they are doing. Fascinating, no? (:

Some vain pictures of us.

the girls that went.

And after the barbarian show,

I walked around the house aimlessly without having anything to do.

Philippe invited me over to see how poker works and I went there. I watched for like ten minutes and I don't even know what is going on. I only know that it involves alot of money. If I know how it works, I would play it with a few bucks only but these guys played with a few hundred bucks one time. Crazy.

And,

with that amount of money, I might buy few more dresses already.

Omg, I have been so stingy lately.

I went home around 11pm.

Don't ask me why I was early.

I can't believe I turned down the offer to go overtime with KahMing, Gary and Maha.

Oh well,

it was a nice day! (;

Christmas.

2011-12-25T02:57:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

I'm a lala, hohoho!

Under the Mistletoe.

2011-12-24T03:20:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas eve!

Sad to say,

I am home the whole day with my family. Apparently none of us gone out other than my aunty. I have no idea why I turned down all the offer and chose to stay at home. I was regretting it in the afternoon. After I have watched Music Bank twice , yes, TWICE. I have nothing to do but to lie on the sofa with the remote and keep changing channels. For the first time in my life, I feel so lifeless and alone because everyone is in their room.

But,

I had supper with my grandparents and that totally made my day.

Oh well,

Enjoy your Christmas!

Can't you see the look in my eyes.

2011-12-22T02:42:00.000+08:00

I went out ytd to Sunway Pyramid with a huge bunch of people. Yes, it's like ten people or more.

I really do not like big outings. I don't get to talk to everyone and also, there will be alot of awkward moments because all of us is in a different conversation. I only like dinners with alot of people, like having 30 people in a same long table. It's just too cool, wtf.

Reached around 1230pm and met up with the ze favorite baby twins (:

We have McD for lunch since I have been craving since two days ago. Plus, it's really cheap. Still can't believe that I only spent 6 bucks for lunch. Lunch normally cost a bomb for me.

Got movie tickets for Petaling Street Warriors.

Yeah, I have watched it before but trust me the movie is really worth the money.

Then,

we headed to Starbucks to spend the rest of the time. Have really good catch up session.

Lisa's specs.

I totally love it :p

Weichanchanchanchan -.-

See my hair colour muahahahahahahahha.

Lisababy.

And there we go for movie.

Had a very very good laugh.in the movie. Omg, I totally love local and singaporean productions.

Toilet break!

camwhore.

I like this picture so much!

And then ,

we headed to our favorite YUEN steamboat for dins.

At the same time,

we give our weichanx4 her birthday surprise.

Oh well,

spending birthday with boyf and friends is one of the best thing ever.

Happy Birthday , WeiChan.

I love you (:

那些年

2011-12-19T03:44:00.000+08:00

Christmas is in 6 days time.
New year's is in like, 11 days?

The year is going to end soon and it's definitely too fast. At least , it's fast for me. Everything seems to be happening too fast for me this year. Things comes unexpectedly and goes on without intention. Some are good, some are bad.

I hate the phrase ' good things comes to an end'.

I agree with the phrase but now I totally hate it.

I just want time to slow down,right now. I want things to be remained the same. I don't want anything to change .Everything seems to be so perfect for me right now. Sometimes by the time of thinking of things change hurts me. I know it's selfish to put my words this way but this is what I really want it to be. I don't know how to put my feelings in a phrase to describe how awful I am feeling inside right now. I keep on keeping things away from other people so that they won't remind me. I can't even get over that things myself.

How I wish you could read everything in my mind without me explaining and telling you. How I wish you could take an initiative to understand my feelings. Why are you always lying to yourself ? How can you be so confident about everything and smile throughout things when it is killing you and me inside? How can you take things that is going to be happen next like nothing?

How can you take things so easy?

I can see that, you know....

I wish you were here.

2011-12-18T04:25:00.000+08:00

Annnyeeeeeeong!

I'm here to brush up what I did last week. I went out everyday for the whole week. I did not get enough sleep at all, for the whole week so I decided to cancel all my outings these few days to get more sleep. I have been at home for like, 3 days straight without heading out until today to settle some stuffs.

And I'm starting college in like 2-3 weeks time.

I feel excited and nervous at the same time. I can't get to go and see the new environment and also, to meet new people. But at the same time, I'm afraid that I can't adopt the environment though. I was suppose to take foundation but most of the college don't have my course so I have no choice but to take A levels first. And really, A levels is really tough tho. I'm starting to regret whatever I am taking already. I'm really afraid that I might fail my tests though :/

And last wednesday, I went out with a few friends.

I was really late. All of them were there around 10am while I'm still sleeping like a pig at home. I woke up around 1230pm and then, got brush up and got ready.

I reached around 2pm.

I think I really can't leave my house without fixing my brows and BB cream, I kind of give up on eyeliner. It consume too much time.

Met them at Sakae Sushi and then, to redbox.

Taken by Donniena.

The same old thing happened. What else you can do in redbox right? The aircond was quite strong that day though. I was literally freezing my head off.

And,

there's a new born couple.

After how long, I wonder.

It was so romantic (:

Solo shot.

Soook.

shuhuai.

And we left around 530pm.

Toilet break.

Donniena.

And guess what,

Donniena fetched me home o:

You seeee :p

People grow up, no?

Even our little Donniena.

And the next day itself, I went out with another bunch.

And,

I was late again -.-

#foreverlate.

Camwhore at home.

JaeSern finally reach my house at 2pm -.- And we got a hard time finding parking .

More camwhoring picture.

Ate at kimgary's and then watch Mission Impossible 4.

We walked around and all , then toilet break.

We walked around then head to McDonalds and talk about trips and future events to make this year more completed.

After that, we decided to have dinner at Taipan since the restaurants in Pyramid is almost fullhouse. Oh well, it was a great day too.

I think I took too much time on this blogpost and it's not even long -.-

Okay,

goodnight.

说你也一样爱着我.

2011-12-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

Quite a number of people rushed me to update about prom. You can't blame me for being late. I snap much pictures with my camera so I'll have to wait for other people to tag me so yeah. The picture quality was nice but I totally look like crap in some pictures :/

Woke up around 9am and grabbed a light breakfast , lazed around and watch some tv. I headed to the saloon around 12pm. I fell asleep when they were straightening my hair. I was really really sleepy and I have no idea why. When I'm up from my nap, My hair is still not done. I have no idea why they do it for like 2 hours plus and I think it's normal, wtf.

I was so stingy that I do my own make up. Plus, I really do not have time though. I start my make up around 4pm and everyone reach my house around 5.30pm which is like so early.

oh well.

Not posing, I swear.

Two of the boys shower at my house and yeah, we got more time to camwhore. I totally like the lightning in my room.

And we left the house around 6pm.

Thank god that the traffic wasn't that bad.

I love that ring ! :p

Went up to the hotel room to put things and sit for awhile. We are suppose to be there by 7pm but we went down around 745pm and not much people reached. Probably everyone is late, haha. Then it comes, the taking pictures session.

loveee!

preschool buddies.

the fake tattoo that costed 25bucks!

JaeSern.

Yuhung.

I like how the colour goes.

Twins and ming.

*breathe in*

Bernice so pretty.

Like button.

And the picture below is one of the best picture I have taken of the night.

Donniena!

I like how happy both of us look!

used to be.

Missing ZhiWei here.

The dinner starts approximately 830pm.

Was having some troubles with the tables at first but end up, it went all good.

The dinner is in western style The bread is nice, I ate two without butter or whatever they gave. The atmosphere was overall romantic since it's so dark and there are a few candles in the middle table. Candle-light dinner, lol. And they only light up two so I light up the rest of the candle. I didn't really like the mushroom soup though, it was too creamy. The main dish was disappointing until I ate the mash potatoes at the bottom. So, it was good!

I'm never a chocolate lover so the chocolate cake desert is definitely not my favorite.

Oh well,

I like the mash potato under the fishes wtf, and the mushrooms too.

K , I'm weird.

I totally love how the MC make the situation so funny and relaxed. The way they choose the prom king and queen was good. I never even feel bored for a second. I wish they had made they choosing time last longer though.

And this year,

they have the best mask nomination thingy too.

It was good, seriously good.

And then,

they have this slow dance moment.

I am #foreveralone so I walked out and hanged out with a few friends but I guess, the slow dance moment was good.They said it was too short. I had good moments too, even though it's outside the hall.

And the studio photo taking time!

love button!

Overall , prom was good!

Everybody seemed to enjoy themselves. Of course , I see a few people who wasn't satisfied with it but really, the performance was okay and the total ambiance was nice.

I stayed over at prince hotel that night.

Almost KOed at Overtime but afterall it was a great night.

Oh well,

last day of highschool was really good and meaningful.

Everything that happened that night was a surprise.

Time machine, anyone?

loves.

My superman.

2011-12-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

I am a spoil brat. I never respected anyone, I never cared about people's feelings and also, I never put myself in other people's shoes. I never even care about the circumstances that people have to been through because of what I freaking want. I only care about myself, I only care about how I want things to be, I only care about things going into my way. I never cared about other people, at all.

I hurt everybody around me like crazy. I never even try to consider people's feelings before doing anything or saying anything. I only protect my own and only care for myself so that I won't get hurt. I've hurt so many people and now, I even hurt the closest of my life.

I hurt my Dad.

I can't believe I totally hurt his feelings. It kills me a hundred time more when my grandma told me that he is hurt , is disappointed of me. He loves me so much and that's how I repay him by breaking his heart. I'm the worst daughter ever. I never even apologize to him after so many days. Infact I only care about my feelings since he said things that hurt me and ignored his.

I am feeling totally like a piece of shit now.

I never deserved to be your daughter. I'm sick, arrogant , bad-tempered and disrespectful. How could you even tolerate with me for freaking 17 years?

I want to make it up to him now...

I love you, Daddy.

Please come home soon...

I'm waiting for you, at home...

love,

your useless and hopeless daughter.

2011-12-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

Prom was great and infact, it was the best night ever in my life.

I have never enjoy myself in a night that much. Everything just went so perfectly awesome. I know that it's already over but the memories will always remain. It's really awesome.

Good things comes to an end.

I love you. (:

2011-12-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it?

It's prom tomorrow.

Unbreakable.

2011-12-07T14:59:00.003+08:00

Having my last paper tomorrow.

And tomorrow will be a very busy day for me to get ready for prom which is just a day after. I'm just here to keep you updated.

Last friday,

Sook drove me out from my house and claimed that we're gonna have dinner together with ze bitch of course.

But that fella drove all the way to Kota Kemuning,telling me that we're going to pick somebody up. I was fine with that until we got stuck in the jam for an hour. The traffic was terribly crazy and it was raining. The worst thing of all, I only know one song from her CD which is Mr Simple. She's a huge ELF and so all her songs is from SuJu but I only know their hit song. To kill boredom, I keep repeating Mr Simple. I kept complaining in the car until she have to feed me cookies to shut my mouth.

And finally,

we reached KK but we couldn't find the house. We went round more than 4 times and at last, we decided to wait at the guardhouse and then that mysterious person came!

IT WAS SHI TENG!

Our primary friend whom I haven't seen in 4-5 years.

We jammed all the way back to subang but the ride was great. All the catching up session was hilarious.

And we decided to eat

Banana leaf rice!

Awesome dinner.

And while I went outside to look for ZhiWei , another mysterious person came!

Omg, it was such a happy day!

And the another person is..

DUN DUN DUN.

ZHUNJING!

He is one of my best friend during the primary school days.

The dinner was absolutely extra good with great companion around.I totally love reunions especially with the close ones.

And we head for second round at snowflake!

the pretty decorated house we passed by.

Totally in Christmas mood tho!

And group picture!

bestz friendz.

And we left the place around 1030pm.

I swear that day was one of the most awesome-st day I had in my life.

Let's do it again some other time ! (:

2011-12-04T21:19:00.001+08:00

Joon ,

I WANT YOU

ON MY BED

RIGHT NOW.

想要跟你走到最后但我遗矢了地图.

2011-12-03T17:20:00.009+08:00

Before anything, please click HERE and like on the picture. Your vote is much appreciated! love youuuu!

Hello , I have 5 days more to my est paper which I think it's still far away and so I will just update what I have been doing these few days.Other than that, I finally transfer picture from my phone. Oh well, iphone is seriously very important to me now. It's how I keep in touch with the outside world without my comp.

Smart phone ftw.

And when I was so stress about BM the other day, I did facial masque and this nose masque thing. I really have a very terrible blackhead problem tho.

15 minutes was long,

so..

Oh well,

I'm really vainer than you think.

November 25 , 2011

This outing was last week , friday I think.

Just the four of us. Mingli, Sook, Bitch and I to the usual place, which is redbox. I have been wanting to go to karaoke for a quite sometime already but then, I am in uniform every freaking single time ):

Oh well,

we had fun.

PLUS,

THERE'S MONALISA IN REDBOX * fangirl screaaaam*

Headed to the new cafe-like place for lunch which is located right beside kimgary. The old place where cocobanana was at. I took the buffet pizza thing which is only 15bucks per person. The others ordered stuff which cost a bomb.

I don't get how a piece of bread and sauce costed 17bucks -.-

Oh well,

it's just once and for all.

Sook and I.

3 hours of redbox was crazy. We walked around and then left home quite early since the three of us have things to do.

In the car!

It was a great day, indeed.

And on the same night,

Le famalia and I headed out for supper!

love this.

This is the younger twin (:

And Dad drove me to SS15, just for

snowflake!

Soya Ice Series Set 4 , add taroballs and taro!

Yummmmm!

December 1 , 2011

A day out with weichanx4 .

She is probably enjoying her holiday at aussie now while I'm still pathetically sitting her and stone my ass off.

We had kimgary for lunch.

Watched Arthur Christmas with her and it was kind of boring in the middle.

And dinner at italiannies around 730pm.

We sat there around two hours, I swear and drank 4-5 cups of ice lemon tea. Since it's so expensive so we kiasu and keep refilling.

The dinner was too much. We almost died.

Anyways,

we ordered one pizza and my all time favorite salmon fettuccine.

matching cotton on slippers!

And she left around 930pm.

Xuelin fetched me around there and we went to pavillion. Got movie tickets for Petaling Street Warriors and then headed to Al-Amar at Bukit Bintang street for shisha. It've been long.

I reached home around 330 in the morning and thought I might get screwed.

But I'm safe.

Oh well,

honesty is the best policy!

I'm going down for dins now.

Let me end with a favorite picture of me and Weichanx4 of the day.

Have a safe flight there, weichanchanchanchan!

xo.

Like I'm made of glass.

2011-11-30T18:35:00.004+08:00

Just done with Biology today and it's counted as the last paper I have. I have one more paper which is EST,it's like a week later plus there's nothing to study about. I'm never good in science plus est is all about scientific terms. Oh well, I'll just worry about that like 5 days later or so.

And now,

I couldn't stop thinking about colouring my hair. I spend so much time google-ing nice hair colours.I don't think the one I like suits me tho.Personally, I think my skin is dark so I can only match it with warm hair colour or so. If I colour it too light, it will make me look even darker.

This is so hard but I'm currently in love with Jessica from SNSD current hair colour!

What is this colour called?

Yeah, I screen cap it -.-

The colour is so lovely!

Anyways ,

there are a few pictures from class part 3 weeks ago -.-

I know I'm late but I have not been sitting infront of my comp so yeah.

Pictures do the talking, no?

You miss lisababy too, don't you?

DON'T TELL MEH YOU STILL KENOT DIFFERENTIATE THEM AH!

I baked muffins but it was a total disaster but they still finish it anyways. Ah, my classmates (': I think I should stop baking/cooking because I think I might kill people. It hurts to know that it sucks but oh well, facts are facts.

Group pictures we took with our Delta shirt on!

loveee!

And then,

we went for briefing for spm.

It's ending already anyways.

Time flies abit too fast right!

Didn't have safety pants ):

And more solo shots with classmates and etc etc.

jacinth.

Youshouldknowherbynow.

innocent ones.

MY MENTOR!

Without him, I might have just failed all my science subjects. This guy seriously have the power of making you remembering and understanding. I passed my bio because of him. I can see him being a very successful doctor in future!

and,

lovely.

twins : p

I totally like how lisa look at whoever it is. so pedo :)

like button!

and lastly,

MEH!

I'm done because I wanna go watch some vids now!

Still getting frustrated about the hair colour thing.

xx.

Like a skyscraper.

2011-11-26T22:12:00.005+08:00

There are a few amazing moment in life, for me.

How many of you have been through this?

The few amazing moment in life,

Coming home late and go straight to bed.

Buying amazing clothes you found on sale

Reminiscing great moments where you never expected it to happen.

Talking on the phone till 5am in the morning.

Taking a long warm shower that wash away your worries.

Feeling satisfied after having a very yummy delicious meal.

Falling instantly asleep when you're crying or feeling upset.

Having a good cup of tea.

Realizing everything is going to be okay by receiving a hug.

10.

Eating ice-cream.

11.

Counting stars with somebody who you want to spend time with.

12.

Listening to the sound of the waves until you fall asleep.

13.

Walking under the rain.

14.

Making eye contacts with your idol.

And lastly,

The person whom you love , loves you back for who you are.

How many amazing moments you have actually been through in your life?

I have been through a number of it and can't wait to fulfill everything else. Keep and remember these moments forever.It's worth more than anything else in the world.

If you are feeling upset and emotional right now, don't be

because

you're amazing.

That's what somebody told you.

You're amazing.

goodnight.

Of lifeless.

2011-11-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

I have three more papers to go.

SPM seems so long to me.I really wish it would just end right away. I'm so sick of staying up late for books books books and books. And,studying till late night doesn't make me having any improvements either.I still don't know how to solve questions. I'm not surprise to see how bad my results it next march.

And things have not been going on right.

I have no idea why am I here either, sigh :/

I should get some rest now.

ps. I'll never let our friendship be on the bet anymore.

It doesn't even matter anymore.

2011-11-24T03:16:00.001+08:00

p.s :/ physics in a few hours time

For you and your white horse to come around.

2011-11-21T18:37:00.002+08:00

I always think that what people say is how it affects the end of something.And of course,this proves that once you get your words wrong.It only can be forgiven,not forgotten.So everybody thinks twice before saying something,making a promise or maybe giving a comment.

Some people misuse the words to want things to be in their way,quick.

That's not right at all.

So .

when somebody hurt you by saying words that you don't want to hear, think twice. Are you sure that they mean it that way?

They say,

Action speak louder than words.

Instead of paying a full attention of what they say, why don't give some attention of what they're doing when you're around. Perhaps you may find a different outcome that you never except or perhaps it have already go against what they say.

Now, think.

____________________________________________________

I'm in the midst of examinations now. The previous papers is nothing compared to the papers coming.

So,

let the real battle begins.

Let's get over this soon.

Good luck.

Good Luck for Tomorrow!

2011-11-13T19:16:00.002+08:00

Of realization.

2011-11-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

6 days more to spm.

And,

I'm still here thinking about things that doesn't relate.

I've heard a confession ytd.

When I look at those words that person says, my heart skipped alot of beats.It's not fluttering but sinking.There's a load on my heart, pushing my heart down to my stomach.I am suppose to cry, to break down or maybe even gone crazy. But no, I was so calm and I've kind of expected it. The pain didn't go any further , it just remains as numb.I felt so numb and annoyed. I feel like lying on my bed and go blank, and I did.It doesn't make me feel better either.

I have not been feeling this kind of thing for a quite sometime.

I don't know how to express what's in me but what I clearly know that is , I am still alive. I'm still alive with my feelings. I thought I'd die with feelings and heartache after a major bad end of heartbreaking relationship at the past. But now, I'm feeling it again. I'm not sure how to put this but I'm glad that I still feel what I'm suppose to feel. Although this feeling doesn't kill me as much as the past do, I still feel so disturbed. I can't think of anything that isn't related to the problems.

I don't want to make a big fuss out of it and start telling everybody.It's not that important.I still talk about it to my close and love ones in skype about it.And, it definitely makes me feel so comforted.

I'm glad how I learn from my past mistakes.I learn not to give in and put too much hope and trust on somebody and I followed my rule.It saved me from a major pain. Although it's still killing me but really, I felt so much better compared to last time.

People do learn from mistakes, from the pain and no doubt that pain change people.

That's how we learn how to deal with life, no?

Let's get over spm together (:

loves.

Carry On.

2011-11-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

No matter how strong and tough a girl on the outside, inside her , she is still the same.That weak, that sensitive.Every girl needs a crying shoulder, somebody to depend on and rely on. It's just natural. Girls are girls. We are that weak,that vulnerable.No matter how long she put on the mask on her face,when she takes it off.She's just like any other.It's just a fact.

And when she feels this way, she always have a person to head to and to rely onto.

And normally,

they call that person , the best guy friend.

Getting somebody in your mind already?

Let's be frank.

We know that the so called 'guy best friends' , isn't just a friend. We obviously acknowledge that the feelings we have towards them is not just a 'friend'.

Perhaps you guys actually like each other and deep down inside, you know that you both have the unique feeling that couldn't be expressed out.

You both may have your own relationship but till the end of the day, the person who you are thinking of is each other.No matter how much you love your other partner, you know that your feeling towards your 'best friends' isn't decreasing. You just want to tell them everything. To share the laughter, the pain, the sorrows and everything that could be shared. It feels like, you have already found your other half to complete you, no?

But end up,

he is just a friend.

In our whole life, we hardly have so many true friends. And for girls , the special 'he' is one of them. You know that, you just only deserve to have a friendship with him more than a relationship. Not because he's not worthy and also, not because you're not worthy.

That's because,

you know that you guys are better off this way.

It doesn't even matter what kind of relationship you guys are in.

The thing that matters is,

you know that you will be there for each other no matter what.

right?

Of random.

2011-10-29T21:42:00.002+08:00

Spm is just 15 days away and till now, I am still here stoning my ass off the computer screen.

Honestly,

I have a few things on my mind lately which cause me not absorbing anything from the book.

I really need to study..

Sigh :/

ps I am not that strong....

2011-10-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

How many more days to spm ah....

I love you like a love song.

2011-10-24T18:37:00.016+08:00

Yes,

I'm back with all the pictures I've got from fb.

Oh well,

I chose just a few which I think it's nice. Nola,actually I only choose the pictures that I look okay in it.Selfish much?

Let's start now.

I freaking woke up at 830am.I can barely even open my eyes ): Mingli reached and then, Bernice fetch both of us to Weichan's place. We did a little slacking and photoshoot and then quickly headed to this place to get dolled up.

Before we start..

camwhore!

They washed my hair and then styled it.

Sorry,

other than tilt-to-live , I have nothing else to do

but to,

CAMWHORE! :D

I totally look like a cow.

Wait for like an hour or so ,

just to get the curls.

They help me out with the make up too and I wasn't that satisfied so,I went to the toilet to fix it myself. I know it's a waste of money but yeah.And their feather-like fake eyelashes costed 20bucks TT ! I should have just use mine instead! ): Regret TT

Back to Weichan's house to get change and fix everyone's make up.

All of us couldn't get over yellow eyeshadow LOR.

camwhore again , lol!

and more,

mingx2

chanx4

where's the like button?

And then, we headed to Grand Dorset at Subang.

I like my eye make up so much lor :p

Throw some stuff into Jaesern's car and there we go,

More pictures to come.

All black! :D

Adriel,

you have no idea how patient he was with me.And everytime he teaches me bio, I pass. And if he don't,I'll SURE fail.Is this a curse or whaat? ;o

XD.

Angelina's (:

Shuhuai and Xiuming.

GARRRRRRY :D

Sat at the left side of the hall, table 46!

haaaaai :p

DSLR IS ALWAYS BETTER ):

Then the ceremony starts.

During the speeches...

like button, plss!

BLAAAACCCKKK!

And,

babyhaaan! :D

and another solo pic,

My class is the second class that goes up the stage.I still remember very clearly that my heart was beating so fast when they called my name. I'm so afraid that I trip or something.It would be so embarrassing if I fell on stage.If I did, it would be the most epic memory I have in highschool.

But thank god,

it didn't happen :D

Dinner was served around 8pm and then we got some performance and multimedia presentation by classes.

And really,

those people can actually be really really creative!

I enjoyed myself tho.

I walked around after awhile.

Febri.

FooKhiew

Brandon.

Angelina.

Nik.

CHINKEAAT :D

Take note,

all the clear pictures is taken by him.

And when I go for toilet break.

Love this picture so much!

They say we look like a pair but I think he looks like my son more..

And group pictures..

LIKE BUTTON?

the four of us! :D

The other 3 is missing..

My class is the last one who perform and I suppose it was okay.Not many people were in the hall so yeah.

I think the school management is really evil!

They make all the students line up in a line and bid farewell to the teachers.So many of us was crying! I didn't wanna cry because I'm afraid that my make up will smudge but my feelings took control of me. And that moment,I have regretted so many things.

Even now when I think of the teacher's faces crying and wishing us good luck gives me a heartache.

And,

I graduated from SriKL after 12 years..

So many childhood/teenage memories.

I'm not gonna say more because only I could feel what I'm suppose to.

Let me end it with a picture of

us.

Words couldn't describe.

love,

Carmen.

Baby Love.

2011-10-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

I really wanna update about GradNight today but unfortunately, all the pics is not posted up on fb yet.Oh well, facebook takes forever to load.

I'll be back with a post after I get all the pictures.

I miss that day already.

xo.

2011-10-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

Gradnight was really awesome.

Please tell me it's not the end yet.

ps I love you.

Of time machine.

2011-10-19T22:22:00.007+08:00

It's the last day of highschool tomorrow.Feeling totally uneasy right now.Idk why, I don't feel happy at all. Oh well, I'll try to enjoy tomorrow.

Anyways ,

I went out last Saturday with ze friends to buy grad stuff.

I meant the boys since girls usually prepare it a month before or so yeah.

Reached ou around 1230pm and hang around searching for clothes. It's so hard to search for guys outfit. It literally looks the same but when they wear it, it looks so different.All the designs are similar to me. oh well, I picked on colours. I personally like boys that wear pink or purple. It looks really cute so I couldn't stop suggesting this two colours.

Babytwins came around 130pm or later which is late.

I only remember that I was really hungry!

LISABAAAABEEEEY :D

like button?

Went to BarBQ plaza for lunch.

Then separate to get ready for potato's surprise party.

Settled down at TGIF.

Just now is Lisababy,

Now is Livonhoney!

group picture!

And more shopping.

And the boys really did buy alot of things.

I only bought two nail polish , pathetic riggghht? ):

Fast Food for dins!

Ming

(':

Then to cinema.

KOKWENGWENG.

Real Steel was really gooooood!

You guys should watch !

And yeah,

last day of highschool tomorrow.

I used to type a blogpost about last day of 'school' and now it becomes 'highschool'. I really can't believe that I'm already seventeen this year and totally couldn't accept the fact that I'm going for college next year. Whatever I'm saying now isn't gonna change anything so I'm going to just keep it to myself.

I'll enjoy tomorrow as much as I can.

You should enjoy it too.. (:

Let's just hope tomorrow pass slower ):

goodnight.

2011-10-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

Unspeakable.

Of unbelievable.

2011-10-16T18:40:00.004+08:00

Graduation is on friday.

I'm feeling really depressed and sad these few days.

I can't believe actually this friday is the day.I used to dream of it and wonder how does it feels like waiting for gradnight.I thought I'll be real happy to get over highschool which is full of dramas and everyone that controls you here and there.But, I'm actually feeling really sad.

I even felt like crying by thinking about it.

I am not ready to get over my classmates ,the classroom and the surrounding of school.I've been in srikl for at least ten years.I've never been to any other surrounding other than SriKL.I'll definitely miss it.

And,

most of all, I'll miss teachers yelling at me because I keep talking in class ):

And also,

I can't even imagine not seeing you anymore.It just kills by just thinking of it.

Sigh :/

Time,

please slow down.

When you're not strong.

2011-10-14T21:32:00.005+08:00

O Hai !

I spent today with Bernice. First to AC, then to blackball. Blackball is just another copycat but it combines snowflake and gongcha. They have buy one free one promotion today so we decided to give it a try. Okay, another reason is I was so kiamsiap. 3bucks+ for one bowl is like so cheap so yeah.

It was okay at the first few bites but slowly, it tasted kind of disgusting.

Both of us never finish it fully.

back to snowflakes.

Brought camera to school these few days.

And,

guess who?

It've been long, isn't it?

All time favorite Donniena (:

And,

Adriel.

This crazy fella got at least 90% for each subjects.

We named him, Google (:

To satisfy myself,lol.

The so-called lala angle.

Lisababy.

ZhaoYing.

And ,

Deltarians have been practicing for graduation night's performance these few days.I think we are all doing great but a little too soft.Totally hope we could improve by next week friday.

I think I'll tear up during graduation night but I don't wanna smudge my make up. I'm really feeling very depress by thinking highschool life is coming to an end.

Oh well,

another new chapter of life.

Please always let the ending be as good as possible.

When vanity strikes,

xo.

Of conclusions.

2011-10-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

It's the last friday tomorrow.

Next friday will be graduation night and there comes our study leave.

Feeling totally depressed and down right now. Just the thought of ending highschool life is fearing me.Not only fearing, it's also saddening.I feel so old in a sudden.Not ready to be eighteen , to be known as a mature girl yet.

To think of it, time really flies right?

When I was in form one, I hope to become a form five so I could drive and go college.And now, I'm already form 5 but the feeling is totally the opposite how I used to feel.I don't know what you guys have been thinking but I think,I changed.

I used to be very unreasonable and throw tantrum on things that isn't going my way.I often used to hurt my love ones with very mean languages that you could never imagine. But now,I stop doing. That's because I realise that isn't a way to tell them how am I feeling inside.It's just another reason for them to leave, to find someone better.

No matter what happens in the future,

I hope the friday routine will always be the same.

Just the few of us hanging out and make a conclusion of the week.

I'll always miss how highschool life is, especially the friday routine.

I'll enjoy tomorrow as much as I can and spend it with the one I love the most.Having snowflake, all together. Do all the things in one shot.

You guys should enjoy tomorrow too.

ps.

going to bed with a very complicated heavy heart.

nights.

你的永远实在太遥远了.

2011-10-11T18:08:00.006+08:00

I got back most of the results today and it was like crap. I'm going to die on thrus , having all sciences back. I totally feel like a failure. I'm definitely not a study material.I couldn't wait to get over spm. I feel like there's a part of me dying each day when it's getting nearer to spm.

So torturing .

So the other day ,

I went for acupuncture to release stress, wtf. I don't know what's the point of doing it anyway but the intention is definitely not harmful. It's good for blood circulation and aiya,just health laaah.

Woke up round' 9am in the morning and headed to Kuchai Lama for Fish Head Noodles.

Yumm!

And then,

walk around yumcha with family and went to the place around 1130am.

The place is kind of isolated and creepy in a way.

Changed into a batik tube dress.

Honestly ,

the needles poking into your skin isn't that pain. It was bearable actually.

Felt so much relax and better , after that.

Might be going back for more.

When the needles are in me ,

I couldn't stop thinking about the scene where the guy when for acupuncture in final destination 5 . It haunts me so bad,mg.

Night market after that :p

popiah.

and the very nice sausage from lok lok!

I had steamboat dinner last week at home :p

Iphone apps ftw.

Stayed back last friday with Bernice and headed to..

Had snowflake first and there we go.

The place was so disappointing. Got two new heels , different colour but same pattern.

then to pyramid,

IRELAND POTATO :D

TayTay :p

and now, the family comes in.

And last friday,

while waiting for transport to Tenji 2.

O.O

trying to fit in ..

i'm blocked TT

Seriously,

the elder twin really likes to take picture.

I should save all his picture and show him ten years later. So freaking clingy omg :p

(:(;

And solo,

Eyebags.

And you know whaaaat?

Today is such a big day!

This guy..

It's okay , fellas.

I thought that sexy man was GOD too :p

He went to military today (; and last week during his last concert..

he cried.

I watched the vid on youtube and I cried too wtf.

When oppa was thin, he put on a lot of weight now :p But still looking good.

" Don't worry guys, I'll come back in one piece" - Rain.

COME BACK WITH 8 PIECE LA YOU :D , I meant the abs .

xo.

Oh my beautiful target.

2011-10-09T01:53:00.001+08:00

It was taken when I visit an optic shop for a new glasses.Not because my specs spoil, I just feel like making a new one. For spare and a new design that I can always wear I'm out without looking like crap. End up, I choose a very kor-style kind of glasses to follow up with the big specs trend. It somehow makes my eyes look smaller but oh well, I'm totally in love with it.

Most of all,

the wide range of view makes me feel more comfortable.

There are some of my friends saying it doesn't suit me/ugly. Oh wait, there is only one of them.But one comments doesn't matter as long as I like it.

Being straight forward is a good thing because somebody is true and real enough to reveal their feelings.If you chose to be straight forward to other people, then don't get on your nerves when other people tend to be straight forward to you.

Oh well, they are just trying to communicate with you the way you communicate with other people.

I totally couldn't stand people having an attitude like that.When you tend to do that to others,then just get prepare when other people doing that to you. Stop being so self-centered , selfish and not self conscious enough. It's sickening and disgusting, ew.

So the other day before trials started,

family and I went over to Puchong for korean food.

DaORae, it is.

Walked in and got fascinated by UKISS,FT Island and more signature posters. They dine here when they are in Malaysia.Can't wait to see Mblaq's posters up :p :p

When I was waiting for place , there's a women..

Me : *random looking around*

Lady : Annyeonghasaeyo. Can I have a menu *do the book handsign*

Me : I'm not a korean.I don't work here.

Lady : oh sorry sorry *walk off with embarrassment*

WALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAO TT

This is like the third time , I've been mistaken as waitress and some worker that work in the shop.fml TT

Family then say , they must think you did your eyes -.- since I got flat nose, fml fml fml TT

And yum yum,

The dinner was so satisfying and I almost puke because I was too full.

An hour after the dinner, my back was full of red patches and my face was so red and itchy.I visited a doctor after that. He said I was allergic to KIMCHI -.-

wtf,

KIMCHI?

Although I never liked kimchi but that's like the first time I really eat it and thinks it was kinda okay but end up, I'm allergic to it. Oh well, forget about kimchi and korean food. ):

Trials starts the next day and I feel like dying since then TT

The family reunion dinner on the other .

With the elder twin.

K, mood on dy on dy :)

Omggg,

I really think that being sensitive to camera runs in our genes.

And more last favorite picture.

LIKE X10000000000

Damn cute, mg (:

ps Rain's going for army on tues TT Imma cry and dai nao ):

You zoom zoom my heart like a rocket.

2011-10-08T16:58:00.005+08:00

As I said, there will be an entry today .

Oh well,

the past 2 week was hectic. I've got not enough sleep and having a headache almost everyday.I also feel sleepy when I'm doing my papers.I feel so screwed up and helpless. I'm totally not ready for spm and it's like 6 weeks away or less. Oh god, let me a photographic memory please ):

Other than exams, everything turns out fine .

But,

exams is everything , for now TT

I'm here to update about an outing a month ago.

Yes, exactly a month ago because I do not have time to blog about it and also,the pictures wasn't uploaded to facebook.I'm just too lazy to bring my camera out and snap pictures.No reason, just lazy to take and upload.

It was suppose to be a dress&heels-hunting date.

behind the scenes.

It was in teetoo!

Teetoo sells good clothes tho (:

And you have no idea how long we have walk around pyramid and get nothing ): to NOSE :p

totally love the brightening effect.

where's the like button?

Camwhoring mood , ON.

Playing with iphone apps .

Just so you know, my iphone is not jailbreak-ed. That's why my apps is very limited. Ah, emo ):

weichanchanchanchan.

I only remember we had steamboat for dinner :p

Till then, x.

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xoxo

Of nothing.

2011-10-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

Trials just ended today.

And honestly,

I am going to flunk it very badly. I never put in any effort to study.I can't wait till spm is over.I feel so tense.

And I feel so disgusted and ugly lately. I wanna change my whole face ):

I'm so tired today.

I'll update by tomorrow perhaps.

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Of fangirling.

2011-09-30T23:38:00.007+08:00

MIR

Bang Cheol Yong.

Thunder /CheonDong

Park Sang Hyun.

Lee Joon.

Lee Chang Soon.

G.O

Jung Byung Hee.

Yang Seung Ho.

And they are

created by

Rain

Jung Ji Hoon.

Jtune Family (:

I love Jtune family.

They are just like mini-Rains.Can't wait for them to be as successful as Rain.I'd wish they have a private jet each.

ps . Just fangirling (:

Of Sexy beast.

2011-09-25T02:57:00.001+08:00

Rain's enlistment date is Oct 11 which is like next next next week?Honestly,I truly hope he isn't joining the army.He have not been on screen for a quite sometime already and yet,he's leaving the industry for 2 years.Although he have new movies coming up but it isn't the same anymore.I want to see him tweeting everyday.Sigh :/ I'm sorry bout being fangirling here but yeah
Ah,oppa ):

ps first time blogging from phone anyways.

Look at how cute he is (:

Sometimes I wanna hide.

2011-09-23T20:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we should put our dignity aside , throw our pride away and do things we want to do.We can only be young and crazy once and time isn't going to turn back for us. Time machine doesn't exist.

Why should we live under everyone's control?Why should we give a shit about what people say? Why should we live under their expectations and follow their orders?Why should we give up our own happiness to satisfy other people?Why should we please people?

Most of all,

why are we living a life we don't want it to be.

The fact is,

We can't freaking please anyone.

Just do whatever you want to do no matter how stupid or crazy it is. Just do it.

Because in the end,

everyone is going to judge you,to try to break you down,to tear you.

The truth hurts.

So,

live for yourself not somebody else.

Everything's fading away.

2011-09-21T02:12:00.000+08:00

Annyeeeeong.

Have been on hiatus for a week to rearrange my emotions. I have to tidy up my emotion since my trials is like next week. To be frank, I've only read two chapters of history and did a little maths.I feel so helpless and useless.

I don't really on my desktop anymore since I always go online with my phone. The main purpose of on-ing my desktop now is to sync my phone to download all Rain's and Mblaq's new picture.Yes,I'm a huge fan of Jtune family. And so then,I finally bother to transfer pictures to the desktop. Out of no where,I just feel like blogging with my pile of pictures. I still have some with my friends so I might do another post or so.

In school,

Oh, I'm a spm student.

I feel kinda regret for not paying attention since beginning of the year. I can't catch up,seriously. Emo ttm.

And the other day,

checking my clothes up for Delta's pink day photoshoot :p

My pile of pink clothes.

and,

the rat my grandpa caught -.-

Had a big family reunion dinner 2 or 3 weeks ago? I'm not sure though.The dinner was so good and cheap indeed. I've always love place with good air-conditioning.But, this place changed my mind.It's very stuffy and so but really, the food is really good!

Baby Bel (:

camwhore (:

And the very next day, I went down to KL for dress hunting since I don't wanna rush last minute. And of course, after I've bought it,I'll stop complaining about what I want and stuff.Just so you know,I complain 24/7.

Went to Pavillion , Sungei Wang and finally to Lot 10.

Wanted snowflakes at Pavillion but the crowd is extremely crazy so for snowflake,we went down to the sungei wang's outlet.Have been carving for snowflake for a quite sometime already and the weather was terribly hot and so yeah.

Sesame sensation isn't that nice tho, I think Japan Combo taste better.

But,

I'll always be loyal to Soya Ice Series ser 4 + taroballs! :p

Walked around sungei wang to check whether there's any good cheap stuff. I bought a box of fake lashies only ): Wanted to search for some flats or so but,failed. I think I need to buy shoes and new slippers.Mine is so old already ):

and guess what I saw,

fake beats for rm25 each.

I was kinda attracted to the pink beats.So cute! :p But who knows what will happen if I'm using it.If it explodes or something then die TT

And on monday, (during the raya hols) we went out.

On saturday itself , we went for YUEN steamboat!

the amount of people fighting for chicken wings.

The chicken wings finished in 27 seconds and yes, we timer-ed it.

Went out with my sister to pyramid the other day and try ZenQ dessert.

It tasted like crap.

It's a buck cheaper than snowflakes but the portion is like 2 times smaller and the taste is so disgusting.I've no idea why is everything so slimy. Their taroballs isn't chew-ish enough.I totally hate the combination of it.Most of all, the ice is so hard and it's very sweet.

Ew, I'll never go back there anymore.

Imma stick to snowflakes.

Last week, I went to snowflakes again.

This is what I always order! yummm!

And on the same day itself,

My mona lisa reached.

Like finally, I've been waiting for so freaking long! The packaging was pretty but I was too lazy to take details of it. I think Mblaq's album packaging is better than Rain's. Rain's is always big and not much of details and MORE expensive -.-

Went out to Bangsar on saturday with Xuelin.

Walked around with her and her sis around Bangsar village and chill.And,I realised all the cars in Bangsar is expensive and pretty. Saw this really pretty sport car though.

Then to Nirwana Maju for banana leaf rice.

Best food ever !

Then hang out around the place, went over to alexis around 730pm for XuehQi's surprise party.

Pavlova.

It was okay but over creamy.The fruits on top tasted better than the cake.The creamy part is tasteless but the crust( or whatever it's called) is sweet and it directly melts in your mouth.One piece is 15bucks, double price of secret recipe's cake.I'd prefer secret recipe's durian cheesecake tho!

Not only the price is better, even it tasted better.

Personal comment.

Got home around 930pm and watched some videos till 4am, wtf.

Woke up around 2pm the next day and went out to KL again. Pavi to Lot 10 then back to Pavi.Back home around 6pm and decided to go grocery shopping.

Brought the twins along!

SO CUTE :P

Had KFC for dinners. Was kinda full since I had heavy lunch in Pavi already so only Cheesy wedges will do (:

And yesterday, every last minute plan.

Xuelin fetched me around 1045pm to hang out. And the next moment,I get down of the car to pack my clothes to sleep over at her place and wanted to study -.-

But we end up in Bangsar around 1130pm.

Ate chicken wing for supper. There's such a dramatic scene in the restaurant. Some break up or so.

Missed the road and went up to KL. Almost got lost and so.But luckily we managed to remember some roads. Oh well, was kinda scary then. Firemen everything where and so.

Such an experience (:

We slept around 330am .

Went to McD and have lunch. Wanted to study there but it started raining.From outdoors , we move inside.And the environment is so noisy and nothing go inside our head -.- So we decided to go to snowflakes. JENG JENG!

Went around ss15 and there's no parking so we went and pick Cyn up first.

And finally have my snowflake!

Home around 4pm , watched a lil tv then fall alseep and up till now.

So much plans huh?

And,

my trials is next week.

Good luck to me.